After alot of thought and self realization. I let it all go and looked for the signs that God left for me to follow...so I thought things out and felt that my soul would not be at piece if my wallet would be. I will not sacrifice peace and calm for having financial total independence. I believe my call is for what my talents and skills lend it self to. I know that's what and why God gave them to me, not to let it lay waste because of my own selfish desires. So I said I believe You will lead me to the right one and so. I am now a contract worker for one of the So Cal's largest health care providers doing graphics. Am I happy?...YES I am, the people are very nice, the work load is just right and I don't get forced into being over worked. I work a 40 hour week and that is all, no more and maybe less if I need to leave to do something, but that is sacrificed at no PTO.
Anyways blessed thanks is long over due to Jesus for providing more than what I had hoped and prayed for in a job. IT pays alright till I get hired on as permanent staff, but it's still work currently and it pays the bills =)
I joined a new cell (small) group at my church with my family and they asked if someone would mind leading the worship session next week. After the worship set we had that day (yesterday, singing to a cd). I felt that the need was there to dust off old Taylor and build the fingers back up. Not certain if this is all leading up to anything, but wondering if I can just help encourage people with music that I use to play. The leader of the group seemed very happy...I said hold on, it's been years since I've played and I need to practice still, but I'll try to lead a song or two. God if this is where I'm going for my next portion of service, so be it. I'm going for it...all souled out. I miss playing, it's been such a blessing to have such talented people to be lead by, but very uncertain if the call is to support the team in the congregation as the worship pastor is leaving our church to start a new plant in Lebanon....TN, that is =) It's going to be a bit of a tough time of transition for the church, but not certain what will when he moves. Keep worshipping Jesus of course but not certain of the leadership role and I'm not going to go for it....I'm very very very way under qualified...hahaha I guess that's what some people in the bible said as well, but seriously I am...not saying it out of humility, but out of realism. Who knows, but I'm just a little guitar player from the valley holdin up my 6 string hackin away. I miss the old days...good memories and some sad memories that come of it as well, but God's blessed me with this gift and I prayed about playing a good while back and even my worship pastor/close friend said "why don't you lead in cell group" I guess I was waiting for the right moment and I guess the call was sort of clear yesterday. Live by faith and not by site for if I did I would freak out at the craziness that is happening around me, stay focused looking up and not see how far God is helping me to sore up in the sky.
There seems to be a fork in my road, it's no longer a straight of a line as I would like. The 1 month project is over now and I'm working on a freelance project and also attempting to change careers, I'm checking out sales...pharma sales to be exact. I've gotten a second interview but it seems that I don't have the eye of the tiger hunger effect. I'm supposed too laxed/layed back. I don't think I am, otherwise I would own my own business and be able to negotiate. All said and done I need to jump through hoops if I want this job, but do I change who I am to become something I don't feel like? Do I sell out my personality to do a new line of work? I'm praying hard about it and trying to see where God really leads here. I'm going for a ride along, but where does my faith fit into this line of work? I still wonder...
what do you say about being an open minded Christian who accepts people for who they are? Being green and open to being environmental? Is it wrong to be environmental and be Christian? Go does say to take care of stuff that is given to us unless it goes against him. IS it right to be a gas hog as well and demand it? Where do you draw the line? We live in a society that is driven by gas (no pun intended). We need oil to make thing and fuel things, but yet it doesn't help the environment. God did give us this earth to take command of so to say, but he did entrust us with it and not to destroy it, but we do need to live. Where to we draw the line?
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